Kanna’s GONE?!

Well, if this wasn’t the SINGLE most unexpected thing to happen recently! Okay, that’s kinda sarcasm. What with the death of certain Hollywood celebs that don’t even need to be named, I suppose I should narrow down my criteria into H!P stuff only eh?

Okay so there is that new cover album with all the awesome new versions of Minimoni. Tanpopo etc. Which by the way, I’m well excited for! But, you know, it’s nothing compared to losing another member of H!P so suddenly. I mean, she’s already left! No time for fans to even make a goodbye post in the days leading up to her quitting, no time for the haters to explain all the good things that will come from this; we get the news two days after the event happens!

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And you know, it doesn’t matter that she’s been out of action for a long while. I was excited to imagine of the day that she would return; what it would be like. Perhaps my imagination runs a little too far, but this is something of what I imagined it to be like:

°C-ute gathers to the front of the stage during an MC in one of their future concerts. As usual, the Wota are yelling out the names of their favourite members, but stop in respect just as Maimi starts to speak. They start off in the usual manner, pepping up the audience with their talk of “high tension” and the like. Then, they start the roll call, with the usual slightly over-practiced yet still cute charm which they use when introducing themselves.

Once the 6 members have finished that however, there is a small silence. The girls look at each other; real, unscripted smiles on their faces. You can hear the excitement in the voice of the girl, whichever one she is, as she starts to speak to the audience. “And now,” she says as her eyes show a hint of seriousness (not that the audience can see that, mind you), “I’ve been chosen to tell you all of some very exciting news. As you know, °C-ute became a 6-person group back in February, if only temporarily…”

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At this point, a few Wota throughout the audience have guessed what is happening and are starting to yell their lungs out. What they’re saying, nobody can tell (not an unusual trait of the Wota), but whatever it is, it’s raising the tension of everyone in the arena. They know something big is about to happen! The girl continues to speak despite the rising volume of the audience, “Thank you for continuing to support us despite the change in members. But we’re also very grateful for those who continued to support Arihara-san during her absence. She has missed singing and dancing for all her fans very much, which is why I’m so glad to announce that, tonight, we would like to reintroduce our 7th member back into °C-ute…”

In this one second all the girls raise their microphones to their mouths and stretch their arms out to one side of the stage, beaming smiles on their faces. The Wota have their glow sticks at the ready, they take in a deep breath to prepare for the scream-fest about to follow. And just offstage, one girl is shaking more than she ever has in her life, even more than the first time she set foot in front of an audience like this. Will the fans accept her back? Was the group better off or liked better when she wasn’t there? Is she really ready? Whatever she’s thinking, she pushes it aside and puts one foot in front of the other, ready to greet her audience for whenever she hears the words:

“Arihara Kanna-san.” The arena explodes with the sounds of (unfortunately) mostly male screams of pure… wotaness, shall we say? The idol herself, ignoring the slight pain in her foot, puts on her best smile without even trying, running out with a sensation she hasn’t felt in many months. The unspoken feelings of adoration, pity, perhaps even disappointment that all her fans have built up during the past half a year all comes out during this one moment, one that’s too hard to capture by words. Its electric. Its magical, and it brings the girls to tears of happiness.

They hug, hold hands, and then let Kanna speak to her audience. She expresses her heartfelt apologies and thanks them the best she can. She’s so overcome with emotion that everything she planned to say has left her mind. The fans cheer her on, but all she can do is thank everyone one over and over again, failing to hold back her tears. Its too much, but the other girls understand. They call on the next song, perhaps one of their first indies singles, and the feeling and power that they put into it blows the audience away. Kanna shakily gets through all her lines, but the fans don’t care. All that matters is that (, Megumi aside,) °C-ute is back to the way it should be.

… But now, that will never happen.

I’ve never really thought about it, but I really was quite a big Kanna fan. Whenever someone commented on her being too boring or being a leso or just basically said something bad about her, it really got to me. Well, moreso than I would if anyone made fun of say… Erika, for example. She was a really good idol in my opinion. Her voice didn’t grate on the ears, she was cute, she didn’t try and overdo her character or anything. Some might say she was a little boring in that way, but I beg to differ. She was doing her job, and yet it never seemed to me like she was being forced to do anything. She seemed to enjoy her time as a star, while it lasted.

I know she’s been gone for months, so for a lot of people it may feel like the right time for her to leave. Perhaps that’s true. It’s still a bit of a shock to me though. The truth is, I haven’t had internet for almost exactly the same amount of time that she hasn’t been in °C-ute. So, you know, try to imagine it.

To have a member you like announce that she’s on hiatus until she gets better is a sad thing, but you’re still supporting her and awaiting the day she rejoins the group and does her job well once again. There’s a future to the story still. Fast forward a bit, having absolutely no internet, and in turn absolutely no news about H!P for months (except for the one or two times at a cousins house), and then you finally get the internet. You cruise along for a week, catching up on the latest news about the MM AX concert, the two °C-ute songs that Kanna didn’t participate in etc. You’re just getting back into it when BAM! °C-ute suffers another loss. Not so “important” as the loss of Megumi perhaps, but to me it’s still pretty big. Sure, she wasn’t a main player as far as vocals were concerned, but when she got them she did them well.

I’ve dragged this on long enough. I wish her well for whatever she decides to do in the future, and I really hope she gets better. Still, the thought of what could have been if she had stayed… What is in store for °C-ute now?

And the final question.. what will this do for Berryz? If the cases of Maiha and Megumi are anything to go by and you enjoy entertaining the idea of the little “curses” of H!P, then will this spell the loss of another member of the opposing group in a years time?

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Goodbye Kanna. And goodluck.

What should I do…

Ever since I took a day off from translating Tsuji’s blog completely, for work and to go out and keep a social life; the amount of new posts looked so overwhelming.

As I’m only 17, i’m still living with my parents, so as they’re always busy I also have the “privelege” of babysitting my 3 and 9 year old sisters a lot, as well as having the most time consuming chores of washing the dishes and washing/hanging out/bringing in/ folding the clothes (from my host mum I’ve gotten the habit of folding everything like you would for a shop.. it takes time but…) for a 6 people family. My older brother, although 19, is a little too “busy” to be at home to help most of the time, even though he still lives here.

I didn’t come back home to put up with this stress and to act as housewife while my poor Mum does the 12 hour shifts and my Dad spends his days in the office “working”, so he deserves to not do any chores apparently (yet Mum comes home after 12 hours at 6am/6pm depending on the shift, and still finds a way to make sure everything is in order before taking a well deserved sleep)

So, as I’m not going to school anymore, at first I thought I could keep up with a new project, at least for a while. Even though it was originally just for practice at Japanese, I took up translating Tsuji’s blog. But, Murphy’s Law likes to bite people in the ass. As soon as that happened, one of our cars broke down, dad became a whole lot “busier” (ok, he does earn money with his little computer “business” but its not stable and its sure as hell not enough to allow him to act like the “future millionaire” he’s “going to be” with his Amway -_- ), my sister returned to school leaving me alone with the 3 yr old… a lot of stuff has happened and I have no time. At all. I love translating, it’s something I strangely enjoy. But its become a chore to stay awake to do them at 1-5am to keep them updated. I would love to do it, but I just can’t handle it. And now, everyones got H!O to turn to, so they won’t turn to other sources as much anymore, which is good timing for me.

As I can’t take this life since returning home, and I REALLY need the independence AND time I was given by my host family by earning it, instead of working my ass off as if I was a parent of the house and not getting anything in the form of time or freedom to go out (or money, not that I want to take that from my Mum) in return; coming next week, Friday the 13th, I’m moving out, back to my hometown… bad choice of date I know XD. I feel bad leaving my Mum without an extra (overworked) helping hand, but they didn’t have me here for a whole 10 months, so they’ll find a way to stop depending on me again.
I’ll be living with my Nan but I’ll be paying for all my own stuff myself like rent and food and internet and everything. Which means, at first, it’ll be better to not use the internet at all. How many weeks or months I’ll not use it, I’m not sure. I’ll be looking for and will be starting a full time job, starting to learn how to drive, as well as saving up enough and then seeing if I can do bridging courses for yr 11 and 12 at Tafe; seeing as I missed out on yr 11 and driving lessons so I could go to Japan, and would be behind a year if I went back to school (like, no thanks). So, once the important stuff is sorted, then I’ll think about internet access.

So what I’m trying to say is… I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise to update as soon as possible and help give Tsuji a voice to her international fans as well… it was shortlived, but I guess heres where I stop unless time suddenly turns in my favour. But really, I’m surprised I even have the time to write this. That’s how bad it is. If I ever have the chance, I will try to do the latest ones (skipping the ones I missed) seeing as it really is good, fun practice for me. Thanks for the feature and for actually coming to my blog and reading my translations despite my lack of experience!

By the way, about the “contributions” page that was put up recently… that was not my doing. It pains me to have that page, that makes me look like a beggar. There are SO many more experienced people on the web that translate and do it a LOT better and have a LOT more uploaded material then I do… and I don’t deserve to ask for any “donations”. And, if you will believe me, the truth is I didn’t put that on my site. Dad did. Because for ONE DAY, I got over 2000 visitors to my blog. And, his.. “princess” getting 2000 hits to a site automatically meant “OMG, MONEY” to him. So he nagged me. I said no. It’s begging and I don’t deserve it. He complained to Mum. She told me to let him do it, otherwise he would never let it go. He came to me again. I told him no. He tried blackmailing me; “Oh I see, you’re just another one of the 95%, following the crowd, who will never get anywhere because they don’t have an entrepreneurial mind”. I said that’s wrong; I don’t want to cos I don’t deserve it, and it just screams BEGGING. And besides, why does everything we ENJOY always have to turn into A WAY TO MAKE MONEY? Its disgusting, and there should be a line between them if we want there to be.

And then he sulked, I was told to do it by Mum again, and for her sake so he would leave her alone, I agreed, reluctantly. The Paypal account is in his computer businesses name.. the thing hes so “busy” with all the time.

…So yeah. By my choice, from next week I’ll have to be paying for everything as if I lived by myself, even though I’ll be living with my Nan. So, if you feel like donating 50c or more to a 17yr old someone who hasn’t really deserved your well-earned 50c or more at all, I’d be absolutely shocked and extremely happy.

(Hopefully, if theres still less than 10 clicks on the Contributions page before I move out, I can convince Dad that shutting it down is “ok”)

I hope to God he doesn’t see this page.

Non Peace #12

2009-02-02 19:28:10

☆Fingernails☆

That reminds me, these were my nails during the conce1rt  ニコニコ heart3 heart3

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It’s been a long time since I’ve had my nails done cute and showy x➁1 raburabu up1 up1 heart3
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Non Peace #11

2009-02-02 17:51:19

☆Question Time☆

Everyone heart3 Thank you so much for the many comments  ニコニコ heart3 heart3 stars2

I’m reading through them at the moment, though only bit by bit heart3 (^O^) heart3 peace

I got a lot of questions, so I’m gonna have a little Answer Ti長音記号2me nihihi up1 up1
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Non Peace #10

2009-02-02 11:03:39

☆Small Mail☆

Good mo1rning nihihi heart5 heart5 hand
Everyone,


About
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It looks like there are a lot of people who are reading it. Thank you so much
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Wh, wh, wh, what
I’ve set it up so, from today on, I can accept small mail ニコニコ heart3 heart3 stars2

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Non Peace #9

2009-02-01 22:05:43

☆Then x➁☆



The live costumes were something like this
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First, for the opening

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It’s pure white
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Non Peace #8

2009-02-01 21:40:54

☆It’s Over…☆


Hello! Project 2009 Winter

It was a HUGE success, and it finished without any incidents ニコニコ heart3 heart3 heart3 peace peace peace

It was during the time that Non was ➀➁ years old when Non became a part of Morning Musume ニコニコ stars2 stars2

It’s almost about that time when 10 years will have past… light light light

It feels like it went by so fast, yet so slowly…

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Non Peace #7

2009-02-01 19:26:23

☆One Last Time☆

The first performance ha1s ended nihihi heart5 heart5 stars2
I’m happy, of course  heart3


In our free time, I took a quick picture together with everyone from Wonderful Hearts
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Non Peace #6

2009-02-01 08:20:10

☆G’Morning☆

Good morning! ニコニコ hare hand


There’s going to be a concert at Yokohama Arena today too, narii1 nihihi heart3 heart3


There’ll be two performances, narii1 nihihi heart3 heart3


After this, I’ll be going to Yokohama Arena to get my makeup done, narii
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Non Peace #5

2009-01-31 22:58:28

☆Hugs☆

I’m hoooome ニコニコ heart3 heart3 stars2

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And now, good niiight ニコニコ zz

See you tomorrow…ニコニコ heart3 heart3 heart3

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